I realized the following:

1) This is my best way to vent.
2) I apologized already. Since he's telling half the world that I'm someone people shouldn't be friends with and stuff, that's fine. I'm always willing to be his friend again when he wants to be mine. I don't hate him or anything, but I guess he does. Blocked me on AIM and MSN, so I guess that says a lot. So, even if you're telling everyone things about me, it's not affecting me. And it's better if you say the stuff you say to people to me instead. Because in reality, you're just doing the same as me before. I changed, so whenever you realize that, I'll be waiting.
3) I don't know why I was tripping so much when I just read shit that wasn't directed towards me. It's what she says to ME that matters. So until I hear it from her, anything anyone else says is irrelevant and probably the wording will be changed to what she actually said. I'm not giving up and I like where we are at right now anyway. I see it as slow progression, but I don't know what she thinks. If time allows, it'll show me on his own.
4) New goal: don't be depressed (it's actually been in effect for a week now, and it's working.)
5) I'm fucking proud to be a rave-child.